The answer is extremely complicated, unverified, and hugely complicated. I have not yet posted the details on Tumblr nor do I know if I will. At the end of the day his reasons didn’t add up, or make sense, and left me with a lot of questions, to which the answer most likely is he doesn’t even know himself. If you, or anyone else, wants me to explain further and fully, you will have to ask me off anon as I don’t feel like posting the details on Tumblr.
I think you should definitely approach your doctor for help. Or even a friend or family member as the first step. It is always very difficult to get help with an ED because your ED tells you that you do not want help: remember, your ED is trying to kill you. Do not listen to it. Fight it and push past it. It will destroy your life, and maybe succeed in killing you. So talk to someone. Get help. I cannot stress this enough.
I have EDNOS, but I was pretty much anorexic I just didn’t reach the weight criteria to be diagnosed with it. I have not recovered, I still have an eating disorder, but I am trying to work towards getting better.
I suggest you go seek professional help right away. Early intervention is crucial, as the farther you get into it the harder it is to recover, and believe me, getting that far is the most miserable existence ever, so please, please, go talk to someone right now and get help and tell your close friends and family so that you have a support network around you 24/7.
Okay, firstly, you need to exercise at least 30 minutes 5 day a week. I recommend cardio such as high-intensity aerobics, or swimming. Cardio is good for burning fat, whilst strength training, such as pilates, help to build muscle. I work out every day: pilates and/or yoga twice a week, aerobics twice a week, and swimming twice a week. Sundays I do whichever I feel like it on the day. I also walk EVERYWHERE. Taking the stairs instead of the lift, little things like that, can make a big difference in the long run. Also, stop driving everywhere if town is half an hours walk!
Switching up your routine is good for your body and best results too.
But exercise CANNOT compensate for a poor diet. Eat plenty of vegetables, quite a bit of fruit, and limit carbs (but do eat some, and also allow yourself treats occasionally). Get your fat content from things like nuts and avocado, and oily fish such as salmon. I try to eat pretty clean too, which means cutting out refined foods, such as foods with refined sugars, and white bread, white rice, white pasta, white flour…basically, if it’s white and not a vegetable, don’t eat it, as it has no nutrients in, it’s just pure energy!
Make sure you are getting the right nutrients and the right amount of calories. You should calculate your BMR online and go from there, but make sure you are eating AT LEAST 1200 calories a day, or your metabolism will slow down, which will most likely cause more weight gain in the long run. Although, 1200 calories really isn’t enough to sustain you if you are exercising, and is most likely going to be unhealthy for you, so I recommend at least 1500 (again, this is still fairly low).
Always eat breakfast! This kickstarts your metabolism.
I eat alot of fruit, veggies, 0% fat greek yoghurt with berries and honey, soya yoghurt, soup, avocado, peanut butter (but only a little each day - really good for you but it’s highly calorific so only eat in small amounts), quinoa, and sour dough or dark rye bread.
Also, drink 8 glasses of water a day! It stops water retention and so reduces bloating, and flushes through all the toxins in your body and flushes out any excess water too. (:
If at any point the exercise that you are doing or the foods that you are eating/cutting out are making you miserable, then please do not continue to put yourself through it. If you feel like weightloss is the only thing that you are gaining out of your diet and exercise then please re-evaluate. Losing weight is not worth being unhappy for.
He does not.
Thank you! My hair actually is a bit shit at the moment it’s completely dried out because of what I’ve done to my body with my eating disorder…
Yes I work out every day - swimming 100 lengths an hour twice a week, do high intensity aerobics twice a week, pilates and yoga twice a week, and i walk about an hour nearly every day too.
My camera is a Canon 450D - thank you so much, you are very kind (:
5ft 7 inches.
Sometimes I get annoyed at questions like these because they are so ignorant, but I guess I have to remember that a lot of people are uneducated about eating disorders.
The whole point is that you never ever see yourself as slim. All you ever see is fat. So it is a compulsion to not eat, exercise, and lose weight, but however much you lose you never see yourself as thin, so you keep on losing, because not eating is better than hating every inch of your body every minute of the day, although, you still do anyway, you just keep trying to reach out to what happiness you THINK is in front of you if you lose weight, but it’s never enough. Even with knowing this, it’s easier to keep on trying to lose that weight than to hate yourself so much that you want to die when you eat and/or gain weight.
I think you should do something because you never know, you may be able to help it a positive way. When you see her sitting alone, approach her and get into conversation. She may really need a friend right now, but she may also seek solitude. She may think this is what she wants but it will be the eating disorder pushing away all her friends and isolating her so that she has no support network whatsoever, which is vital.
Yes, all the time. Why?
Oooh are you the previous anon? Well the first tattoo (the love one) is because I think it is the ultimate important thing in life - without it we have nothing. This includes family and friends as well as partners. It is also to do with my brother - 4 and a bit years ago I was close to attempting suicide but out of all the reasons not to, above all, was the love for my brother: knowing how it would destroy his life stopped me.
The second tattoo (the “strength” in Thai one) was to remind me of all the things I have got through and the strength that I had to get through it all, even when i thought i was weak, i now realise it took a lot of strength to go through the things that I have and come out the other side. It is also to remind me that I will need that strength again, and to remind me that I DO have it.
The third (the “you”) tattoo, was created when i was on Skype to my partner, Isaac. I doodled it and then realised it would make a cute tattoo. It is firstly about him; how he has changed me, my opinions, and my life for the better. He made me realise how i deserved to be treated and that I should never again let myself be used as a doormat and that I should never allow myself to be a victim in a relationship, and that there are wonderful, amazing guys out there, that not all guys are horrible and selfish and abusive. It is also about anyone who has, is, and will be, a positive influence on my life.
8 years. (2012)
My weight loss.